Anna's Memories

Holding her in my arms, I felt at ease, the pain was slowly leaving me. But my mind was still on one thing, to feed. It was tormenting me, the vampire in me,wanted to bite her. But the last bit of humanity in me stopped me from doing so.

i let myself melt into his arms and be comforted.........he understood.....he didnt treat me differently just because my memories were gone....

She felt warm,soft,in my arms I felt at ease with her near me. I felt a calmness between the rifts of storms. I felt human almost, but the hunger in me could never end. I just hoped, I wouldn't have to use her like I did before, ever again.

i fell asleep in his arms.

my dream had many diferent colors. but the one that showed up the most was blood red....blood red was paired with Jorden.....like i knew something secret and deep about him....that no one besides me and him knew......

I sat with her in my arms, her breathing was normal as she slept. She looked rather calm and peaceful. I wanted to kiss her, but the hunger stopped me from getting to close. I was in to much pain, my fangs wouldn't stop aching to sink into flesh and to suckle to soft taste of her blood.

"Vampire...." i murmered in my sleep......we were in a room. i was on a bed with silk sheets and a black satin dress on. he was lying next to me.

his fangs egloted from his gums......ready to bite the thumping vien in my neck....

I closed my mouth and said nothing as she laid in my arms. Was she afraid of me? Did she really trust me not to hurt her? She was a brave girl, or rather, I was fool to worry about something like this.
She knew what I was, I sighed gently. "Yes...I am..."

"Bite me" i murmered next....he got on the bed next to me. poised to bite my neck.

What was I doing, I was going to bite her? No! I pulled away slowly,letting her rest on the couch. " I can't..." I whispered softly as I sat away from her, my hands were shaking. my body urged me to do it, but I refuse!

"Do it joey...i know you need too" i murmered. he leaned down and let his fangs break the skin on my neck.

I pulled away quickly and covered the bite mark. I closed my eye's and tried not to shake. Her blood was on my lips,my tongue gently licked it clean. It tasted so good, I wanted more. But I stayed perfectly still.

i woke up. he was still here. "Im sorry that i fell asleep...." i said to him. i sat up and finger combed my hair.

I had to look away. "It's alright..sleep ok?" I felt a bit uneasy, her smell filled the room. My whole body tensed.

i nodded. i noticed that he was tence. "Are you ok, jorden?" i asked him.

"Ya I'm fine..just been a bit tired lately." I laid down next to her with my eye's close as well as my mouth.

i laid back down and curled up next to him. had i done something wrong? was my last thought before i fell asleep again

I wrapped my arms around her and held her close, she must have been tierd. So I tried to relax with her. I was always somewhat pissed that I could never fall asleep holding onto her.

i dreamed about that blood red room again. only now he was just holding me as we kissed passionetly as lovers should. his left hand was on my neck and slowly going down my back.

I kissed her softly as she slept, her lips so warm and tasted so sweet. I could smell the blood so clearly now, I opened my eye's to the feeling of them burning, possibly they changed. I closed them once more and leaned my head back away from her.

the hand moved down to my arse and pulled me closer. Was this a mix of love and lust?

I laid there in a mix of thoughts, to take her,please her or to leave her to rest and sleep. I was at a crossroads with my now thoughts, I hated this kinda of feeling.

"Joey" i murmered. but in my dream jordan lay on the bed trying to sleep while i was in a blood red silk robe. i stood in front of the mirror. when i looked at myself in it my reflection started to talk to me.

I had but closed my eye's when I heard her whisper that little name she always called me back then. My eye's opened slowly, praying that she was awake and that she remembered. But when I looked at her, she was still asleep. Buried memories perhaps.