my random poems........

He left her.
when he left her
he took her world
with him.

she cries for
him at night
when her nightmares
haunt her mind.

she loved him
so damn much
that sometimes she
would cry in
his arms.

she thought that
he loved her
just as much
as she loved
him.


now she is
left with nothing
to live for.

she isnt her
her happy self
without him at
her side.

now she is
a blank slate
and is waiting
for him to
give her her
heart back.

she cannot move
on until he
does.

she will not
love again until
her heart is
warm and beating
in her chest.

until the day
he returns it
she will be
blank.

Blank and numb.

Her world was
full of flowering
trees that grew
fruit that fed
her subjects.


when she was
in the gardens
a visting prince
saw her and
admired her beauty.

he sent her gifts
he wanted to be hers
he wanted to make
her happy and
hear her laugh.

he wanted to
see her smile
reach her eyes.

a smile that
would light up
her gray-blue eyes
that reminded him
so much of the sea.

when he sent
her a necklace
that had a pendent
with a red
heart she cracked.

she met him
in the gardens.

she was wearing
the necklace he
sent her.

when he saw
it around her
neck he smiled
and hie eyes
brimmed over with
tears of joy.

he hugged her
and she hugged
him back.

their first kiss
was under a
cherry blossom tree.

it was a
sweet and loving
kiss.

the trees bloomed
their furit when
they kissed.

the trees knew
that it was
indeed true love.

she sits under
the old elm tree
wondering who she
is.

she thinks long
and hard about
who she is
to the world.

but all she
thinks is that
she is a
nobody.

that she is
not important to
the world.

she is a
shadow in her
hometown.

no one knows
of her skills
and talents.

the kids at
school ignore her.

they call her
freak and other
name that make
her feel even
more alone.

her parents are
always busy working
she takes care
of her sibblings.

she wants to
run away and
start a new
life for herself.

she wants to
fall in love.

she wants to
do so many
things that are
out of her
grasp.

the blade flashes
a glimmer of
light from the
moonbeams.

a puddle of
red marks the
white carpet of
her room forever.

her little sister
and brother find
her in her
room.

there is no
note with her
good-byes on it.

the little one
cry over her
body.

when her parents
come home they
are shocked and
stunned.

her mother faints
and her father
picks up the
knife from her
lifeless body.


she is burried
under the old
elm tree where
she use to
think.

now she rests
in a deep slumber.

but there is
no prince charming
to kiss her
pale lips and
bring her back
to life.

his cell phone
rests on his
chest.

he is waiting
for a call
or a text
from his lover.

but no call
or text makes
his phone ring.

his phone is
silent.

his beloved was
in a car
crash that ended
her life.

he hears this
the next day.

he is broken.

after a month
he say good-bye
to the world
in a note.

he has gone
to join his
beloved.

people who knew
and loved him
cried and cried.

they buried him
next to her
like he requested
in his note.

they both lie
under an old
maple tree.

this maple tree
was where their

love began and
now it is
where it will
forever be until
they are resurected
and meet again
in different bodies.

they stand in
a circle.

each gifted with
an element from
Nyx.

they are in harmony
with each other.

they give thanks
to their mother
of night

they celebrate.

they dance in the pale
moon light until it is time to go
to sleep for the day.

their dreams are peaceful
when they wake
they will go
to their classes
and learn new
things.

the cycle repeats
with no complaints
from her beloved
children.

she lays on
her bed with
a book.

the lamp next
to her bed
is on and
giving her the
light she needs
so she can read.

the books she
reads allow her
to get away
from her hellish
life.

she hates hearing
her parents fight
all time.

they fight every
night. when they
fight she reads.

her books take
her to far away
places where moms
and dads dont
fight.

she see's and
feel's the romances
even though she
has not had
a lover of
her own in
her reality.

she feels the
love of sibblings
when she has none
in her reality.

one night she
is called back
by the sound
of gun shots.

Her father killed
her mother and
himself. leaving her
to call 911
and report what
she herd and
saw.

she is whisked
away.

she gets adopted
by a loving
family.

she has the
love of sibblings
now and she
loves it.

In high shcool
she is a
heart stopper to
all the males
in her school.

she doesnt date
a single guy till
college.

on her 5th
time dating she
finaly meets her
soulmates.

he loves her
dearly and is
never going to
let her go.

he too loves
to read. they
cuddle up next
to each other.

they get married
when they graduate
from College.

from the moment she got
adopted she had a new
and happy life.

books taught her everything.
books helped through everything.

she and her love
never fight.

they live everyday being happy.
someday they will have little ones
to love and to let them have the
love of books.

She stands on the edge
of the bridge poised
to let herself fall
into the river 100
feet below her.

He stands on the
other side egging her
on to jump and
let her life end.

He was the one
who got her the
way she is.


He could have
worn protection the
last time they
were tangled up
with each other.

when she told
him she was carrying
his child he
laughed and told
her to get an abortion.

She told him no.
she wanted to keep
her baby and
raise it with him.

then he told her
to go jump off
a bridge.

she shouldnt have
listened to him.
But she'd been
under his control
for so damn long.

she didnt want the pain
of having to tell their
child that their father didnt want
them when she so dearly did.

Now she she stands
poised to jump waiting
for any kind of sign to tell her
that she would find
love with another man
and that he would love her
and her baby the way
they deserved.

He is getting tired
of waiting for her to
fall into the air.
he gives her a hard shove.

she falls through
the air and
hits the surfce
of the water.

he runs away
while she is dead on
the surface of
the water.

But what he didnt know was that there was
someone watching him and her. that
someone called 911 and reported
what had happened.

He already had a
criminal file. he
was easy to
find and arrest.

He was sentenced
to death for
what he did
to his lover
and their unborn
child.

she wakes from
a beautiful dream
that she wishes
had not ended.

in her dream
the night sky
was lit up
by the stars.

the moon was
high in the sky
and the moonbeams
made the lake
shine and shimmer.

she was dressed
in a white
silk gown that
had long flowy
sleeves.

she went over
to the lake
and looked at
her reflection.

she had a
crown with pearls
as white as
the moon.

she is a moon
princess. she is
finally where she
belongs.

where she can
fit in with
people like her.

she hears music
on the air
and wonders where
its coming from.

when she stands
up she bumps
into a man,
no wait its
a boy.

his eyes are
blue like the
night sky above
them. he holds
out his hand
for her to take.

she puts her
hand in his.
he leads her
to where the
music is coming
from.

its a ball
in her honor.
for her homecoming.
the boy and her
dance all night
long.

they do not
say any words
to each other.
the music speaks
for them so there
is no need
to hear the
words they may
want to say.

she keeps the
dream in her
memory forever.

she wants to
know how to
get to that
place so she
can be happy
once more.

a single tear
rolls down her
face when she
hears the yelling
voices of her
parents.

Who am I
to you? Am
I just someone
you call when
you need a
girls company in
your bed?

I know I
shouldnt go over
but when im
with you I
feel like I
am doing something
helpful. But then
in the days
that follow you
ignore me.

its like im
not even there.
those are the
moments when I
regret going to
see you when
you 'needed me
so much' and
then i get
shit from you.

im sick of
you and you
ignoring me like
as if im
invisable to you
and the rest
of the world.

So the next
time you call
im going to
say no, no,
and no again.
Im through with
you treating me
like shit.

I am freeing
myslef from you.
I will find
a MAN who
will love me
the way I
deserved to be
loved.

Good-Bye and good ridence you arsewhole.

she feels so
utterly alone.
she has a
feeling that
she is unwanted.

she has friends
who want her
around them. its
not them she
gets the unwanted
feeling in her
head.

she feels like
she is unwanted
by boys. why
does she think
this? she has
never been kissed.
she has never
felt the feelings
of making love
with a boy
that loves her.

she feels invisable
to those boys
at school. the
ones who could
show her these
feelings. instead she
is left thinking
that she is
unwanted by boys.

she thinks its
so unfair and
unkind.

she cries over
this feeling everytime
at night when
she is in
her room on
her bed.


she doesnt even
know why the
boys at school
wont date her
and she is
too shy and
embarrest to ask
such a question.

so she goes
on wondering why
she is unwanted.

we lay on
the bed in
each others arms.

we whisper sweet
nothings to each
other
(will finish later.)

we lay on
the bed in
each others arms.

we whisper sweet
nothings to each
other.

my head rests
on your shoulder
while your fingers
leave trails of
goose bumps on
my lower back.

thats pretty good courtney

thanks

Np

there are 24
hours in a
day and yet
the only hours
i look forward
to are the
ones where i
get to talk
to you.

its raining outside
as i write
this poem for
my own reasons
and i am
glad for the
rain for it
covers the loud
beating of heart
as i think
of you.

the past two
nights have left
me feeling so
confused and i
dont like feeling
confused. i am
restless as i
try to go
to sleep.

what keeps me
awake instead of
the land of
dreams is what
you say and
do. i try
to figure out
what it means
and my mind
stays blank to
what you could
mean.

i am such
a coward when
it comes to
these kind of
things. i should
just say it
but i fear
the answer you
would give me
if i said
those deadly words
to you.

but i want
to be yours....
to feel your
arms wrap around
me and hear
you whisper sweet
nothings in my
ears. to feel
your loving and
earnest lips warm
and soft on
mine....

but i just
dont have the
guts to tell
you myself even
though you have
already figured it
out.

omg courtney!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats really cool!!!!!!!! i love it!!!!!!!!!!!!